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For Robin Williams

August 13, 2014

for Robin Williams

So many things I’d never thought of
You spouted naturally
At a speed most can’t keep up with
You let it all flow free

You were the epitome of human being
Kindness incarnate
Not making fun of others
But of life for us to laugh

The clown crying inside
Some mock the creative fire
That enlightens and consumes us
As we forgive them and reach higher

It hurts to live with cruelty
What about this life is not?
Kindness laughing freely
I hope that’s what you’ve got

I choose to live in a place
With legal death with dignity
You chose your time and way
Someday we’ll all be free

Gentle spirit, judge me not
As I will not judge you
Smile now and forever, my friend
That’s how I’ll remember you

from A Call to Contemplation by Franki deMerle


Extra-Sensory Perception (ESP)

July 1, 2013

Two recent but separate scientific studies have shown that patients with Fibromyalgia Syndrome (FMS) and patients with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) have triple the number of nerve endings around blood vessel shunts (joints in the blood vessels). FMS, PTSD, and depression have already been linked together. Now there’s physical proof that FMS and PTSD patients have very real, physical differences from other people. As one with all three illnesses (FMS, PTSD, and depression), I know that “normal” people often ridicule us as being “too sensitive” and say things like “aren’t you well already?” or “it’s all in your head.” They tend to say many more rude things, sometimes intended as jokes, but it gets old fast.

The results of these studies are both validating and a little scary. For decades I’ve longed to know what caused this stuff and how to fix it. I guess now I could say I’ve got a lot of nerve, and yes, I really am more sensitive. I read that about a fifth of the world’s population, or around 1.4 billion people, fall into the same category. So for now at least, I can say with pride that I literally have extra-sensory perception. I look forward to the day when the scientists finally figure out whether the extra nerve endings are the cause or result of the dis-ease.

At least now there’s evidence to back me up. Yes, FMS/PTSD/depression can be affected by diet. If I eat garlic, onions, or pepper, I end up with a cascade of pain throughout my entire body. Yes, FMS/PTSD/depression is affected by weather, to include temperature extremes, changes, and barometric pressure. Yes, FMS/PTSD/depression is affected by exposure to too much UV. I knew this was true the first time I visited Seattle, Washington. I was living in Alabama at the time (UV was VERY high). I’d been on the ground about an hour before I had energy, wanted to go sight-seeing, e.g., enjoyed being alive. When I went back to Alabama, it took just as little time to lose that energy and start feeling bad. I told my rheumatologist, and he denied there was any connection. He said I just liked it up there, and that moving would make absolutely no difference. I moved to western Washington state and got my life back. He was wrong. I’m glad I paid attention to my own body, because I now know it has extra-sensory perception.

I’m writing about this to let others with these problems know that we can put a positive spin on the way we view ourselves. Instead of being defective, we have super sensors. We all know the criticism and ridicule we’ve experienced was based in mere ignorance, but doctors are now beginning to become enlightened to some of what we know we experience. And with over a billion like us, we’re not alone. Ignorance is easy to forgive, and forgiveness frees the forgiver. No one means us harm, but if they do, we can avoid them. Best of all, we really are loveable, exceptional people that can use our sensitivity to be aware of pain in others around us and try to help them.

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